Well this week has been tough. I was let go from my job at the end of a 6 month probation. They said I wasn't what they wanted in the long term. I wish they told me earlier rather then letting me invest my time in a dead end job. Such is life.

They let me go on Monday and I walked out feeling strangely relieved. The job was getting me down and I got very ill. I am glad I don't have to work with bosses I don't get on with and colleagues I don't really trust. They were about my age, 25-26 but very cliquey. They were all from the same area and I didn't really feel like I was accepted. I worked hard but it wasn't valued. Obviously not the company for me.

The work I have been doing has been quite routine - it tends to happen in office jobs, whatever the title. My CV is looking like a complete dogs dinner, I've moved around so much.

Still I feel even more driven and motivated to get over the obstacles in my life.

One thing that is really really getting me down is living with my parents at 26. I was about to move after my probation and now I can't because I have no job. I HATE living with them, it is so oppressive. I need to move ASAP. Everytime I go out they are phoning me, chasing me and telling me to come home. My friends look at me with pity because they don't understand why my parents make me come home early all the time. I don't know what the fuck is wrong with them. But I look at them and they have no friends. They are typical asian family so fucking old fashioned. They disapprove of me going out and they discourage me from living my own life. Well tough shit because I have major plans - I can't put up with this much longer and I don't plan to. I only listen to them now because I'm under the same roof, but once I get a new job I have to break away otherwise this will be my life forever. I am missing out on so much fun because of them.

Today I will be busy looking for a job and my new life. I visualise having a great new job and FREEDOM.

I live with my parents, my older sister (29) and her baby son. I take on everyone's crap at home. They make me the babysitter, and if I have a job they dump their debts on me. I love them and yet I hate the way they make me live. I am sick of everything and can't wait to start a new life.

I have started learning to dance this year and it makes me feel amazing. Dancing is the only time I forget what's burdening me. I feel free and beautiful. I'm improving all the time and the music is so uplifting. It has given me the passion to try other dances and learn other things.

I am also learning Spanish. I hope to move somewhere nice in the sun! Apparently we work the longest hours in Europe. There is not much to stay for in this country apart from family and friends.